Dear Laura: You're Not His Blanket Anymore

Your anxiety is telling you that this is what you deserve under the circumstances. It’s telling you he’s just as happy with her. It’s telling you you can never compare, you’ll never be as good as anyone he’d ever fancied. No one can tell you otherwise. And while it may be true that you’re not worth the effort to him, you aren’t completely worthless.

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Laura Burnes
For Lovers, Till The End: An Open Letter

I know you’ll read this. I know you’ll come to check in and see how I’m doing. Just so you know, I’m fucking wrecked. I feel like I have been shot off the earth and am floating in space unable to breathe with my insides shattered in tiny pieces. I can’t get through my days at work. I feel worthless and I’m so kisses I have to do this and rebuild myself all over again. You did that.

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Laura Burnes
Showing Up In The Face Of Struggle: A Survival Method

When people suggest a movie to me I always get a summary of the plot beforehand. This is a function of my anxiety and a way I protect my heart. When I feel things, I feel them intensely with every piece of me. It’s emotional, physical, mental—an intensity that can take over and break my heart and fuck with my focus for hours or days. “But it has a happy ending,” they’ll say. But it’s not the ending that wrecks me. It’s the struggle.

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Laura Burnes
Dear Laura: Acceptance Is The Way Out Of This

You’ve got this voice in your head that making you mad. It’s saying things like, “You’re not yourself lately. Remember those times you were fierce and strong and confident? Remember when you promised yourself you wouldn’t lose yourself again - for anything? What happened? Where did we go wrong?”

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Laura Burnes
Some And Now None Of You

And then I can’t tell myself what the hell I’m supposed to do. My brain tells me I’m too much, my anxiety is to much for anyone to love. It says I am not worth loving because I’m too much work. It says I don’t deserve the things my heart wants and I’ll never be loved the way I deserve

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Remember Who You Are

My therapist is a badass. She makes dick jokes with me and laughs at inappropriate things and pushes me to reach my potential consistently and lovingly. I’ve been struggling a lot lately and our last session revolved, as has the last few months, around,

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